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{April 29, 2008}   Well, it’s done…

We are putting the house on the market… Everyone’s talk has made me just want this to be over as quickly as possible, I really can’t take anymore…As I sat and surveyed my surroundings last night I felt overwhelmed, good grief we have alot of stuff. Funny how you start off with nothing all happy and content and years later surrounded by everything you though would make you happy you just aren’t. I want to be happy with my life, I really do but what is a life without true love? Not a life at all in my opinion.

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{April 28, 2008}   Blah…

Beautiful That is how I feel today… My mind is so tired, so is my body. I cleaned for hours yesterday just cleaned until I couldn’t hold my body up anymore. I went through drawers and tackled my closet it was a mess! I just feel so sad today and not for any specific reason, it is gloomy outside and I am in allot of pain which isn’t helping anything. I have “morning sickness” during my cycle I wake up sick every morning, I didn’t relate the two at first I have stomach problems anyway so thought it had something to do with that but it had gotten better and now it’s back and my monthly visitor came with it… I always thought that the little phrase “he will not give me more than I can handle I just wish he didn’t trust me so much” was cute but I ready to beg for no more right now… I just feel like laying down and quiting. I am so tired.

On the bright side, I am going to my brother & SIL this weekend with my kids (no husband 🙂 that will be fun and relaxing, well definatly fun don’t know about the relaxing with 9 kids.  Well lunch is over, back to work…

 

Listening to: Jessica Simpson



{April 24, 2008}   Hello!

Well I had to start a new page too many noisey people. At the urging of my s-i-l I decided on wordpress, so we will see how this goes 🙂

I am going through a transition in my life and learning some hard lessons, you find out who your real friends are when your down and unfortunatly the friends I thought would be there are the ones kicking me down further but some of them have some shinning through and really suprised me. It makes it hard to know who to trust when people you thought you could trust turn out to be those you can not.

I have been with my husband and my kids father for 12 years, and have let him control me to a point that I am no longer in love with him. I love him and I don’t want to hurt him but I am not in love with him. I don’t want my kids to grow up in a home where they think marriage should be 2 roomates. I love my kids more than life itself and wouldn’t think twice about giving my life for any of theirs but I am so unhappy I don’t think it is healthy for them.

Of course the first assumption of all of our “friends” is there must be another man, but of course not to my face… There is the hope loving again of course who wants to think of a loveless future but that is not what this is about it’s about doing what is right and I think this is what it is. I may be wrong but I pray for the wisdom to make the right choice.

 

 

 



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